DAY 43 - HIGH CARB, LOW FAT, ORGANIC RAW VEGAN -- 80/10/10 CRON-O-METER

We all have personal issues. Some are circumstantial, some are related to people we attract to us, some are solely because of our own life lessons and follow us wherever we go no matter what!  One of my major ones is forsaking myself/making myself look inconsequential/weak to others so I don't appear to be a threat.  Some of you can relate. Others will go "huh?", LOL.  Believing I am a threat by being all I can be truly is a monkey on my back. 

The way it works is this way:  I'll be easily sailing through my life - life is NOT difficult, we simply make it that way.  Something will happen and someone will state the obvious to me that perhaps I might be to blame.  So, who is perfect in this world? LOL  But, instead of simply resolving the issue -- all problems are EASILY resolvable -- I'll get into my personal muck and feel guilty.  Guilt is the true disease of all of us.  Then following guilt I'll have to punish myself.  My favorite mode of punishment is stated above in my opening remarks. 

This self-debasement mode will last quite a long time until I get sick and tired of being so ineffective.  Then I'll get angry and get out of it.  Unfortunately that entails finding fault in others which is the same guilt issue pointed outwards.  Realize that when you are pointing your finger at another 2 fingers are pointed back at you.  Blame and guilt are the same.  When we are blaming another we secretly are blaming ourselves yet again.  This spiral leads only one way -- down into the pit of dispair. 

I have developed a program of sorts to keep me anchored strongly enough so that even when I am feeling like self-destructing because of guilt I keep on going until the wave of guilt deminishes.  Yesterday I implemented the program.  It worked!  Yesterday was sensational! Not perfect of course but I stayed on purpose and focused and got a tremendous amount accomplished and barely skipped a beat. 

I was planning to do another 92 day juice feast after this 100 days program.  I've decided to continue with what I am doing and start a completely different program.  I am doing 100 days of staying on purpose.  Part of this program has to do with no longer using my charge cards - a very self-defeating and guilt/fear driven habit.  I think in this day and age credit is just part of what is necessary and acceptable.  I have plenty and am in good standing.  This past year has taken a toll on my finances and my health expenses where a priority.  It is time to start the road to paying off my credit card debt and the first step is to no longer charge.  This program will coincide with a filled client roster in my cleaning business which will provide me adequate income to sustain myself while building up my mentoring business also. 

I am a person that needs a well thought out program.  In the next half of this current journey I will develop in detail my next step and try different aspects of it out to make certain that each step is doable. 

We often say we don't have enough time, money, resources, support, energy, etc.  Those are simply excuses for the most part.  We have EVERYTHING we need to right our life and become stronger, healthier, more loving and productive people.  WE stop ourselves!  It is much more comfortable to keep in our box than to venture out of it.  That "comfort" is costing us dearly!  I say break down the walls of the box and come out into life and truly live it!  Participate! Make mistakes! Skin your knees! Enjoy life to the fullest!  Get off the computer and TRULY interact with people face to face!

Of course you can't enjoy life unless you are taking care of your body first and foremost.  That leads to what I am doing and have been doing since last November---eating raw organic produce and nothing else!  This step is essential.  The next step of course is to do a detox cycle of at least 60 days duration.  Then continue on a raw program afterwards low in fat and high in carbs. 

Everyone is different, of course.  But that doesn't mean that some can't do raw!  It means that your raw program will have variations that aren't in mine.  If you can eat cooked rice and have limited financial resources or a family to also feed, perhaps having some rice a couple of times a week will be on your program.  As long as that rice doesn't have fat or salt, then I say that is fine.  It isn't the healthiest thing to eat and often causes cravings however.  Many can eat a bowl of rice and have no adverse effects.  I can't.  So do what you do within reason as long as it is plant based high-raw eating. 

Sorry for the long blog--no I'm not! LOL  Yesterday for my food choices:  60 ozs of water, watermelon, 3 cups of my V6, 5 cups of banana-strawberry smoothie, 10 dates, 1 serving (1 1/2 cups) Fettuccini-Alfredo sauce on red leaf lettuce, asparagus, orange tomatoe, alfalfa sprouts.  1 serving (1 cup) Zucchini-Asparagus-Tahini dressing on Spinach, Mushrooms, Corn, Tomatoe, Lentil Sprouts. 

My Cron-o-Meter stats: 2588 Calories, 83.5% carbs/9.2%fat/7.3%protein.  Water: 5648.5grms, Sodium:603.0mgs, Fiber: 832.9grms.

Have a wonderful day. Thanks for stopping by and reading my blog.